| I know LJ is supposed to be home of the Emo, so I just though I'd make this short and sweet.
Apparently I'm not supposed to be happy in my life because I've finally found a girl that I mesh with so perfectly, that we both feel happy in the relationship, and she broke up with me because she's afraid she's going to hurt me because she's unsure of what she wants to do with her life.
So yeah... another girlfriend I can't keep and one that isn't my fault for once. Yay for life kicking me in the balls.
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| Forget dating ever ever ever ever ever ever ever again. I'd go over the rainbow, but I don't like Scope enough to get the taste of balls out of my mouth (Just kidding, I actually do like Scope). But that's neither here nor there.
For those who still get my friend posts, wondering where I am, you can see all my new passion at http://drummererb.deviantart.com/ Yes I have a DA account. If you like what I got there, comment on it. It helps. If you got any critique, leave it, it helps. If you could care less about me or what I do, then you can just ignore this whole spiel. I mean, honestly I don't think you'd still be reading this if you didn't care. But in the odd chance you still are, even after me pointing out the fact that you probably should stop reading this, I just have these words to say to you.
I found Jesus. He was hiding behind the sofa the whole time. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So this is going to be very emo-y. I'm warning you right now. I'm serious. There will be words like "suicide" words like "depressed". Phrases like "giving up" "I've had it" "no one loves" etc etc. If you do not like such posts, read no further. If you hate people who are "attention whores" then.. well.. maybe you might view it as such and probably shouldn't read it. However if you're curious as to what's been going on with me, read on. I just need to vent this, and the wall started ignoring me hours ago.
So let me back track some here, to get you up to speed. So as by my previous post you can tell that my fiance of seven and a half years, the mother of my first child who is 2 and a half years old, and I are no longer together. This happened on the last week of March. We lived in a 2 bedroom apartment from a private renter named Ron.
Ron was a very nice guy. When we fell behind on rent, we let him know what was going on and kept him updated. He was cool and everything with that since we were letting him know. That was his motto almost. "Hey guys, just let me know and its cool." So the first thing I do the morning after the break up (I told her to leave at 3am) was.. well.. I called my mom first. Then I called the landlord.
Me: "Hey, Charity and I just split. I can't afford this place so I'm going to move. I'm going to be looking today. Since its a day before April 1st, I won't be able to move till May."
Ron: "Well thats fine, you're paying Aprils rent still right?"
Me: "....no I just said I can't afford it."
Ron: "Then you should go stay with some family or something."
Me: "You don't think I would of thought of that? I have NO place to go, Ron, trust me. NO PLACE>"
Ron: "Well would you still work for your employer if he decided not to pay you?"
Me: "This is totally different, Ron, this is me sleeping in a gutter different."
Ron: "Well give me your move out date in writing then."
Okay so I do that, I mail him a letter saying I'm moving out May 1st. 1 week later I get a civil court paper saying he's taking me to court for 'Possesion Without Payment Of Rent'. So I talk to the Sheriff, he says I shouldn't even bother showing up unless I have the rent for April right there in my hand, otherwise nothing will make a difference.
So the date comes and goes, I don't show up because its futile. I'm not DISPUTING that I didn't pay rent. Three days later I get a piece of paper that says that of course I'm guilty and my landlord has 3 days to file eviction papers or he loses the right. He files the papers 30 minutes before the deadline! That asshole! I had 2 weeks left to move out on the date I was giving him, and yet he files the eviction anyways.
So I called the sheriff and asked some questions. He said the eviction date is not set, but by law he could evict me TODAY and everything int he apartment would now belong to my landlord, but Iowa gives a courtesy notice of 2 days. He shows up that afternoon with the eviction papers and was really nice, he gave me 4 days. April 24th, I have to be out of here, anything left here will be put out in the parking lot for the public to go through and I'm not allowed within 100 feet of said thing.
All right, so I've been pulling my hair out, calling family, friends what not to find a place to go. Do you think I've found one? No. Of course not. As a very last resort, my mother said I can sleep on the couch, but thats about it. Isn't it nice my own parents dont want me home because they've "moved on" Yeah thanks guys.
Now this isn't the end of it. There's more.
So I lost my job at the hotel for depression and actions resulting from my 7 year relationship loss. Thanks for the fucking sympathy, workplace. So I was scrambling to find another job. Applied at a billion, got called back by ONE. Went and got an interview, got hired for telemarketing and soon to be Quality Supervisor. However they didn't have a training class set yet. So they called me a week later, said Monday 24th was the start date. Okay no problem I guess. Then THIS MORNING, after all this shit's been happening, they call and say the class has been canceled and they dont know when it will start again, but at LEAST not at all next week.
Fucking great.
Now there's more.
My friends are deserting me. Or is it desserting? I have no fucking clue. Anyways my friend Hollie whom I've known since the 5th grade, finally got ahold of me after not seeing each other for years. I keep telling her once a week for the past month "give me a call when you get off work, we'll hang out" Has she even called once? You can guess. Then this guy whom I now find out my ex-fiance had a crush on while we were together and now is pursuing this crush (or rather, will like to pursue it when they meet in person), he was my friend too. But since we broke up, he hasn't uttered a single word to me. Either its a mistake or he just doesn't like me, but I wish he'd grow a pair and just tell me. Say "Hey, I didn't like how you treated Charity and I don't like you. Piss off ya wanker" or whatever. Thats fine. Now my friend Tony is mad at me because since I'm getting evicted, I won't be able to watch his cat, which aren't allowed as his place. But does he express any concern that -I- have no place to go? No. Maybe he just doesn't want to say anything, and thats fine, but when he's bitching to me about no place for his cat, that makes me feel very unwanted.
Then last night I go out with a friend Joe (and went out to the bars with him a few times in the past week or so) and I try to be fun, I try to find someone I can at least start a friendship to, maybe more at a later time. Do you think I even get a second look from any girl? Hell even the fat chicks were like "Ummmmmm.... no".
So to this I say "I give up." I'm done, I really am. I'm tired of life fucking me in the ass. My mom told me that God was "just seeing what you are made of" Well guess what God? YOU WIN. I'm done. Now I'm not suicidal... yet. I just know I'm on the line though. I can feel it in my blood. My mind is already talking about suicide. What the fuck? I'm smarter than this, I'm supposed to know that suicide is never the answer. I should of fucking had a bright goddamned future ahead of me, but what happenes? That fucker upstairs keeps taking it away from me. I've done nothing to offend! Hell the other day some guy ran out of gas and needed money. I'm jobless, soon to be homeless with little cash, but guess what? I STILL FUCKING GAVE HIM MONEY! And then my soon to be job gets taken away. I used to not be religious but the past 2 years I've been renewing it. And this is how he fucking welcomes me back?
I don't know what the future holds anymore. When I enter a room with a Magic 8 Ball, it explodes. Tarot cards ignire on fire when in my presence. Gypsy's pour gasoline on them and light themselves on fire, running away into the night when they see me. Two days before I'm homeless, and I don't even know where I'm going to sleep. But no one cares anymore. Everyone has turned themselves inwards, congratulating themselves on their next big thing, while I get left behind face down in the mud. I'm sick and I'm tired of fighting with Him. I'm tired of getting ahead only to get it taken away AND fucked in the asshole with a telephone pole.
Like I said, I'm not suicidal, but I know if He fucking gets me one more time, I'll snap. As for right now, I'm done. I don't care anymore. I had seven years of love and now I'm in the negative. I've become what I used to mock, I've become what I thought my intelligence could protect me from. But I guess He had other plans for that. I guess He just wanted to show me no one is above being an emo, and no one is above being fucked over.
God's little pinata. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I didn't think this day would ever come. For the past seven and a half years, I had never been alone. Even the brief times we had "split" apart, there was always someone there with me. A companion (you) or a roommate (in South Dakota). And now.. there's nothing.
I never thought that I'd actually have to say those words that I did tonight. Its weird... I never found the need to use my LiveJournal for the longest time. I even jokingly gave you crap about it. Now.. here I am. Unable to sleep. Unable to eat. It didn't even really sink in that we're not together anymore till a little bit ago. I got on WoW to see if anyone was able to talk, but no one was. I got on Vent, still no one. Trillian? Only Tyson for a short bit. Every where I looked, there was no one. And thats when it hit me.. that I'm alone here.
Am I regretting what happened tonight? I honestly can't say. I know your family is overjoyed that I'm gone from your life. I know your friends are telling you that they're happy you're away from me now. I don't know if you'll tell them the truth on what happened between us and honestly I can't say that I care if you do.
It makes me cry deep inside that I couldn't save my son from being a statistic in this country, that such and such percent of kids grown up in split families. I grew up with both my parents and I know you did too, and I had only hoped that Kaden could as well.
But I can't be around someone who lies to me, who lies to their friends, and failing that (meaning that in fact you really DONT remember that stuff happened) then I can't be with someone who can't remember something as intimate as that. I told you earlier that night that I had never felt more unwanted in my life. Thats no longer true as the moment you chose your friend over me, THAT was the moment I felt like unwanted garbage.
Have I stopped loving you? The words I told you night after night, the words which I spoke throughout the day will never stop being true. And as I told you before, no matter what happens, nothing will ever completely erase the love in my heart for you. You hurt me ALOT, granted, but it will never destroy all of it completely.
I'm not sure how you're feeling right now. If you're happy its done, if you're sad, I truly don't know. In case you're feeling anything but happy, let me say this: it hurt me to break up with you. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Nine weeks of basic training was nothing compared to that. Outside of the reasons we broke up, you are a wonderful person. You will find someone better who bring you a happiness I just couldn't seem to make you see I was trying to give you. I couldn't make you stand up and take notice and puts your friends aside for just thirty minutes time with me. But there will be someone out there, someone with more patience, more tenderness that you need that will make your life a happier one.
No matter what, no matter how far in the future, I will still help you if you need something, please do not be afraid to ask. I told you before I'd never abandon you, and while we may no longer be together in a companionship, it still won't mean I'll try to look after you.
I love you, Josh | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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| SINCE THE LEGEND WAS BORN!!!!!
Okay not really, just its like... 7:30am on Christmas Eve and I was cleaning out my computer, found Semagic and was like "Oh yeah! My LJ pfffttt" So I'm not looking forward to Christmas one bit, mainly cause I've gotten jack for it for the past, I dunno, 10 years. Yeah, I appreciate boxers and the like, but seriously, if everyone just pooled all their money together and help me put that money down on a new car or a house, HEY THAT WOULD BE A MERRY FUCKING XMAS. But nooooooo, they feel they each gotta get me some little piece of crap I really don't need and I'm sitting on no paychecks WITH A GODDAMNED SON!!!! Hello? Every dollar I have right now goes to make sure he's got diapers, clean clothes and food to eat. I've not even been eating all that well, just so he has enough milk or juice to drink.
Oh yeah so I should probably give you the whole run down.
That cool traveling job I had that I made lots of money? 1> The photographer was a dumb cunt and didnt do her job right, so sales suffered for about 2 months before they fired her (I was making like... 200 dollar paychecks for about 50 hours of work a week) then they hire someone good... and my car's head goes. I bought the car for 600, no way I was paying 2000 dollars to fix it, nor did I have the money too. So I had to quit that job.
I live in a section in Marion where the bus schedule is abosolutly horrible (ESPECIALLY in the winter time), so there are 3 places within a good walking distance I can work: Dollar General, Handimart, and Cash N Go
Dollar General won't hire me cause the manager has a hard on for high school girls. Seriously, thats all i ever see work there.
Handimart is a bunch of facist fuck heads who can go straight to hell (plus this Handimart wasn't even hiring). Don't get me started on them.
Cash N Go was the promised land. The lady that gave me the application was all intrested in me. I filled it out there, she loved it. Said she'd give it to the guy who hires and would recommend me. So I was excited, waited 4 days, gave them a call, they said he'd call me back. 3 days pass, I called them, they filled the position. Okay, that kind of sucked but hey, maybe they found someone with like YEARS of expieriance. So I walked down there to see what the skinny was.
They hired Pam Anderson.
Seriously, this girl was you typical valley girl retarded blonde. She had no idea what a money order was. The other lady kept trying to explain to her how a money order worked. And her face wasn't that great either. Just some big tits in tight shirts I guess.
This is exactly what is wrong with the world.
So with no car, I am virtually jobless. Yeah awsome. Charity got a job at GE working REALLY well for her, pays alot, just from my jobless we fell behind on bills so it'll take a bit to play catch up. Her mom takes her to work and stuff and watches our son (i've had the flu the past week, last thing I wanna do is give it to him) GOD BLESS OUR LANDLORD. We are three months behind... does he kick us out? No, he saw proof the Charity got a job and he said he'd feel like crap kicking us out. This man is truly a saint. Seriously.
So we're hoping we can get another cheap car so I can get a temp job. Our other option is there is a house for cheap rent that is in really good condition (friend of Charity's family) we could move to, so that I could just get a job in Amana and have my mother-in-law drive me out to the job. The only problem is A) i can't walk to a gas station after midnight for that late night pop craving and B) I'll be farther away from all the friends I hang out with on the weekend, which is hard enough to hang out with without a car IN TOWN. let alone being 10 minutes out.
So Merry Whatever you celebrate. I know I plan on giving my son a very good Christmas this year regardless of financial situations.
He's said his first words: mama, hi, and awwwwww (he directly associates 'awwwww' when you lay your head down to sleep, since we used to say that to him when he'd do it when he was tire) and he's standing on his own now. Gonna upload some of his pics one of these days. Everyone says he looks like me, I never blieved it till my mom showed me a picture of me when i was his same age.
It's like he's my Mini-Me.
God save the world | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Yeah, so i'm TERRIBLE at keeping this shit updated. Horribly terrible. If that is even a proper English sentence. Fuck it, who cares. I realize I cuss alot now, but I don't give a shit anymore.
I got a new job, a GOOD paying job. I travel around Eastern Iowa to different churches, take people's pictures for church directories and try to sell them extra pictures. I make around 500 dollars a week. A FUCKING WEEK! And that's if I do poorly. An average week will net me around 600-700 dollars a week. The traveling part sucks sometimes, like this week I was in Des Moines for 5 days, so I stayed at a hotel which was run by dumb fucking racist hindu's who literally STOLE money from me, and even kicked me out of the hotel Thursday for nothing. Which is why I am going to the BBB and filing small claims.
So Rebecca, if you read this before then, I am going to the Methodist church in Idependence for like eight days starting the last week of September, skipping the Sunday and the Mon, Tues and Wednesday of October. i THINK you were part of it, I'm not sure. Does your family still go? You should swing down one of those nights or something, unless you already plan on going down for the directory pictures.
My son is standing up and starting to walk, which is really freaking cool. I constantly ask other parents at my job how far along their kids are and I get the impression my son is doing things faster than most, but not all, which is okay, because I work with him every day on learning that stuff, so I hope I'm being a good dad and such. I think it says something that in the morning, when I'm sleeping, he could be all fussy, but the minute I wake up and come out of the bedroom, he's all smiles.
So I swear alot not because I dont around my son and I definatly dont at work. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Don't sue me Disney.
But I killed Bambi.
Fucking deer.
So Wednesday was my brithday and had I not have had it on the same day for the past twenty-two years I wouldn't of know it was. Absolutly nothing happened on it, so meh. Oh well. Thanks to rawbery79 and angelicwonderer for the birthday wishes.
Yesterday wasn't much better. Driving to work and a deer jumped out in front of me, I was going about 60. No way I could of stopped. Flew right up into my windshield, putting a hole through the passenger side of it. Deer was dead, thank god, or I would of asked the cop for his gun to shoot it personally. Bambi is costing me 255 dollars. Thats way to fucking much.
So yeah, WEEEE to this week. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| What a long ass week. 6 days of working straight after being unemployed for about a month. So needless to say I am sore as hell.
I turn twenty-three in about seven days. Kind of looking forward to it, kind of not. I feel alot of my life has been wasted and that I've made some really poor choices in my life that I regret... choices that I may never recover from.
Then there was the nap today. The best nap I've ever had. I put my son (who is almost seven months now, I'll be posting pictures of him tomorrow) in my bed around three o'clock and we both laid down for a nap. He fell asleep first and I just watched him sleep for a good twenty minutes and I realized as little patience as I have, as hard as it is to control my anger, he is the best thing to ever happen in my life and I never want to lose him. He makes me smile even when I am down, he makes me cry because I am so happy. I will always love my Kaden, no matter what he does in life.
He is my son, and nothing can ever change that. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So today they finally let me cashier... like I'm some invalid who's never cashiered before. Freaking Sam's Club. Had to deal with everyone buying 500 dollars worth of bulk crap for graduation parties. I think when my son grows up I'm just gonna hand him a check for 500 dollars and say "There's your party, enjoy" so it saves me cleaning up and buying and cooking that stuff. Don't get me wrong, I love cooking and partying, but when it's gonna cost me 500 dollars to see relatives I'd care NOT to see NO THANK YOU. I mean I'd like to think he and I are gonna be cool and I'll know his friends, maybe the following week I could get them a keg and watch movies all night. Possibly porn. That would be shibby.
So I got a letter in the mail that says I have a phone court thingy for unemployment because my previous employer (read STUPID CUNT) thinks she shouldnt have to pay my unemployment BECAUSE SHE FIRED ME WITH NO GOOD REASON! The first time she said I was doing all this misconduct stuff but she never told ME about it when it supposedly happened and there is no written warnings or records or it so it was found in my favor. That bitch also said I tried hitting her on multiple occasions! OMFG I may be a guy but I'm not THAT dumb to do that to an employer, no matter how bad they are.
And the unemployment was only like 3 weeks (aka 600 or so dollars, whoopdie-doo). But whatever, I highly doubt they'll find it in her favor again because the fact remains even if I was guilty of the allegid misconduct, she never informed me of it so that I may correct these actions and never wrote up warnings and councilings on it. And when she fired me, all she said was I wasn't being a team player........ in a place that has a total of 3 employees outside of her. Yeah, okay.
So I'm bored with Star Wars Galaxies. I might make a bounty hunter but they are a dime a dozen, however the only fun in that game is to be had by the fighters because they shafted the crafters. Stupid Sony.
I'm still playing around with the themes of this. I might just pay the money to upgrade so i can choose better themes. I dont like any of these.
But I'm Le Tired. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| Well what a hectic week.
With tornado chasing, job hunting, interviewing and starting my new job, life has been pretty hectic.
In my LARP I got the position of senechal. Hopefully I don't fuck up and people will see me as a leader some day.
One can only hope.
"Snidely's sorry!"
ROFL Tim you are too funny.
So anyway my brain is friend, which isn't hard to do, but because of all the training I did today. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So the past two days were quite a riot. Yesterday I woke up around 7am for my interview at 8 which just ended up being a drug test. I took it and I have no doubt I'd past since I don't to that stuff anymore. I didnt need to go right away so I ended up running around town getting alot of much needed errands done. It was about 10am when I realized I got about a few days woth of errands done by 10am, a time when I normally would just be waking up. I was amazing. But I was tired as all heck.
I tried taking a nap but I just have this thing about sleeping in the middle of the day. I can do it when I'm super tired but thats about it. So around 5 I went over to Tony's and he had this inkling to go to the comic book shop in Iowa City. So we drove down there and thats when those super storms hit us. Needless to say it was fun, but the driving kind of sucked.
The comic book shop was pretty cool, there was alot of tabletop books I had never seen before (they made a Conan RPG, wtf) and I was finally able to look though some Star Wars d20 books I had not had the chance to read through. If I want to buy all the books for Star Wars that AREN'T campaign books it would be 210 dollars.... yikes. Maybe when I get a cache of spending money, but wait I cant do that either since I'm saving up for the GenCon in August.
Yesterday was another good accomplished day. I woke up around 11am and decided I needed to start cleaning up the apt. My friend Tim helped do the dishes which were Charity's job that she never did for a week, which she owes him for doing that. I ended up completly cleaning up the kitchen, dinning room and the livingroom, it looks really good and now I'm not frustrated at a dirty cramped livingroom. It's still small, but hey, it's alot better now. After that I went to Tim's place to help him pack up since he's moving tonight. Then after that I went and saw Hollie at the mall for a bit and then went to Extreme PVP (www.extremepvp.com) since it was D&D night and played till about 2am. Then I spend the next 2 hours helping the new players in my Star Wars d20 game to make characters for next week.
Ended up getting to sleep around 6am. Guy below me decided Eminem needed to be heard at 10:30am.... so I'm up.
Feh | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Today was a pretty good day. Woke up early today so I would be tired since I have my 2nd interview tomorrow morning at 8am. Tony called me around noon because yesterday we had made plans to go do some outside stuff. He wanted to play golf but I didnt have to money to pay the course fees so we ended up playing tennis instead. Needless to say we sucked totally to start with but after awhile we were getting really good. The scoring system in tennis is downright retarded though. Don't ask me how to explain it or blood will shoot out my nose.
My good friend Hollie stopped by in the middle and I got to talk to her for quite some time, it made me realize how much I missed her. I mean I practically grew up attached to her hip and we have so many memories together. It really saddens me to hear about her relationship with Rob, and even though he's a good friend of mine, Hollie will always be number one to me.
We then went back to Tony's to waste the next 2 and a half hours of our lives by watching what was SUPPOSED to be this huge Oscar nominated film that won Academy awards called Master and Commander. What we ended up viewing was a poorly written, poorly directed movie that flaunted about Russel Crowe and the guy who played Pippen in LotR. His character was not a main guy yet he just happened to be in every frame, no doubt the producer was trying to milk his fame. And the ending... I was utterly appaled and feel like the producers owe me an apology. Jesus that piece stunk.
I ended up coming back to my place so that Hollie could see my son. He was a good boy for her as he usually is for company. He's my boy after all. We're kiss asses.
Later on I met up with Tim and Joe and just shot the shit for a bit, while Joe finished up the episodes of Red vs Blue he hadnt seen. About 10pm I turned in for the night.
About 12:30 the guy below woke me up with his loud music, by the time I was finally mad enough and got up to get dressed... he had stopped. And I can't get back to sleep.
Fucking figures. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) Blue Dragon Pajama Pants
2) Glasses
3) A smug look
THREE THINGS ON (the) DESK
1) Keyboard
2) Mouse
3) "Hand" lotion
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) Own my own business
2) Punch the guy who created the first internet pop-up ad
3) Have sex with a true blonde
THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) Humorous
2) Contemplative
3) Femur (if i have to explain the joke to you, you're dumb)
THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) Sometimes people get offended by my humor
2) I often think TOO much
3) I am too nice
THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE
1) Norweigan
2) A dash of German
3) A bit of Great Dane
THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) Nothing
2) Nothing
3) My penis
THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) Bad eyesight
2) I don't look like James Vanderbeak
3) etc
THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1) *this fact censored so it will remain unknown*
2) *this fact censored so it will remain unknown*
3) *this fact censored so it will remain unknown*
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) Snap (I said it long before the "fad")
2) Just about any line from any comedy sketch
3) fuck-tard
THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1) Tokyo
2) Athens
3) Your mom's bedroom
THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY
1) Josh
2) Josh
3) Herbal Tea
THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD
1) drummererb
2) kabuki
3) ikubak37 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So, you guys all get 3 questions. Post em, I'll give you the answers. But turn about is fair play. Afterwards, you have to post on your LJ the same thing, and allow other to ask you 3 questions. All answers are brutally honest.
Let the pain begin.
-josh | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
|  You'll Fall in Love With An Aries!You want a lover like Aries, one who knows what he / she wants and goes after it. You fall for assertive Aries almost instantly... the only sign powerful enough to sweep you off your feet. Your Aries is dominant and romantic - bringing you lots of adventure. You are attracted to people who are completely in charge. Nothing turns you on more than surrendering completely, to the right person. Symbols of power turn you on - from flashy cars to an Aries with lots of charm. The trade off is that your Aries has trouble commiting and lack stamina. You'll have to try extra hard to make the relationship fresh and fiery. Keep that burst of passion going past the third date, and you are on your way! What Sign Should Your Lover Be?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva
Funny, cause I ended up with a Taurus. How the fuck did that happen? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 1. Who are you?
I am the winds of change
2. Are we friends?
I'd like to think so, but then again I also think I'm the King Of No Pants
3. When and how did we meet?
June 23, 1932. It was a foggy night, I was wearing a trench coat and a ballista hat. You were wearing a black teddy and a feathered boa. You were gonna get on that plane, you were gonna regret it. Not today, maybe not tomorrow, but some day.
4. Do you have a crush on me?
I -could- crush you, but due to certain complications, our patient died at 0714. Now clean him up, I wanna have lunch already.
5. Would you kiss me?
Sure. Would you let me tea bag you while you took a nap?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
Pistol Whip. You know why.
7. Describe me in one word.
depantsitized
8. What was your first impression?
I could do Paul Rueben, aka Pee Wee Herman, really well at age eight, but I dont think it was intentional. My first REAL impression was Beavis. heh heh heh heh yeah, I said bee.
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
Isn't that a song by Semisonic?
10. What reminds you of me?
Judy Garland. Or Odie from the Garfield comic strips. Take your pick.
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
Humiliation and a smug self satisfaction over something regarding Jell-O
12. How well do you know me?
I know you enough that I wouldn't want you dating my mother.
13. When's the last time you saw me?
It seems just like yesterday, that I was changing your tire in the middle of the night. I looked up, we caught eyes and just starting laughing, disolving into an orgy of fart jokes.
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Yes, but I can't tell you.
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
Take a wild fucking guess, genius. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| And to stop myself from quoting a famous white rapper, I'll leave it at that.
In a nut shell everything has been up and down, and I really don't want to get into what was in the past.
So fast forward over a bunch of stupid stuff, and just sum it up in that I have a six month old boy (just turned that yesterday) who means the world to me.
Today was kind of a weird day. I woke up early which was kosher and all, fed my son and we were off to my mom's house since she hadn't seen Kaden (my son) in a while. We got there and he was a perfect boy for her (always is for other people, brat lol). My mom made my favorite meal for us: grilled marinated steak, fried taters, cottage cheese and spinich salad.
After that my mom played around with Kaden a bit and he started to get tired, since we had an hour long trip to get home I figured I didn't want a crying baby in the car the whole way that we should head out then. As soon as he was in his car seat he was out like a light. We took the back ways, going through the old towns I remember growing up in. My old house in Van Horne is still a shithole and the yard was flooded, big surprise there, the sewage system there sucked. Other than that, Van Horne hadn't changed much. Neither has Newhall for that matter. Atkins had a new addition to it, but Atkins grows faster than pupic hair on a seventeen year old.
We got home and Kaden was a bit fussy, but that was expected. About six I got a message from a good friend that he wanted me to help him with a boyfriend emergency. I would of helped except his bf lives in Sioux City and I had neither the capacity or a reliable car to make a 10 hour roundtrip. I still feel really bad about it cause the guy was in a bad situation, but there wasn't much else I could do.
Later that night my friend Tim came over and we ran through some small d20 Star Wars scenarious, he seemed to enjoy it and the puzzles I gave him were pretty tricky. Also got to watch the new Lewis Black show, and just like Lewis, he was funny as hell with good, new material.
I also baked a cake, French Vanilla, which everyone devoured quickly, so I take that as a good sign and not a rush to beat the food poisoning.
So after a night of fun he leaves, no sooner do I get a call from Tim. His tire is flat. Good thing we didn't take that 10 hour trip. So I got out and get all "grease monkey"ed and help change his tire.
So all in all today was an orgy of ideas and motivations, mixed with action and adventure. Now to write the movie script based off of it.
Hey if Quinten Taratino can do it, so can I. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Green.
Green is the color of the grass underneath me.
It tickles as I shift slightly.
It smells of summer, memories sweeping by.
I can hear the blades wisp against each other.
Yellow.
Yellow are the dandelions dotted on the field.
I feel them tap in rythm against me leg.
I smell their perfume, thinking of far off places.
They seem to speak to me, whispering.
Blue.
Blue is the sky far up above.
The feel of the wind blowing by
The smell of rain soon to come.
The clouds rumble in the distance.
Red.
Red is my thought of days gone by
I feel them come quickly, and slowly fade away.
The smell of a youth gone long ago.
The sound of my happiness, still here today.
The tapestries of my heart,
On a simple, summer day. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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